Every once in a while this unbelievable sadness comes over my heart and breaks it all over again ... not because of the way things are but the way things could have been.

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toxic monday

February 28, 2006

 

today is a lazy day. and is a sad day as well. two of my agents were transferred to NTBT. I will miss them especially JLo since she became really close to me na. But that’s the way things work. you win some, you lose some. I’ll be having new agents anyway. New agents, new headaches. I also got pissed off by someone today. Though I dont make a big deal out of it, its just sad that she keeps getting her hung-ups and is very unpredictable. But as I told one friend, "ang pumatol sa kanya, TANGA"

my boss is not in today as well…wonder what happend to her?

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LSS : untitled

 

I really like this song. makes me wanna sing this everytime B* starts to act up.

I open my eyes
I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light
I can’t remember how
I can’t remember why
I’m lying here tonight

And I can’t stand the pain
And I can’t make it go away
No I can’t stand the pain

Chorus:
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I’m slipping off the edge
I’m hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can’t explain what happened
And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done
No I can’t

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I’m fading away
I’m sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

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stressed

February 24, 2006

 

stressed.

because of pressure at work —- nothing new.

stressed.

because i went over my budget —- again.

stressed.

because i’m losing weight — as always.

stressed.

because i wanna go elsewhere.

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back again

hello! im back…after two days of hybernation :)

 

so, ano na nga ba ang chikka…well….i got a new fone, its a NOKIA 6630.

its not the one that i REALLY want but, puede na din. until such time na bumaba na talaga ung price nung gusto ko.

 

anyway… nagluluko pa din every now and then ung blog ko but i think i get why, may mga napa-paste yata akong links that’s causing the bug. but i want to eventually learn how to do fun stuff with my blogs…

 

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im back online :D

February 21, 2006

 

my blog is fixed! YEHEY! thanks to i.ph admin for fixin my spot! i can finally proceed to finishing up the template redo. anyway, while i was missing my blog earlier, i was going over my friendster account. its really nice to see old friends with their updated pics with their families. hayy…. and one more nice thing is to see all those people you hated before tapos dadautin mo kung ano sila ngaun….HEHEHE. yeah, im so bad :P

but seriously, friendster is a great tool to keep you updated with my friends’ lives and so much more :D

but for now, im going back to building my spot. il be back later. chiao!

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huhuhu

as of this time since last friday, i still can’t view my blog. nag-email na nga ako sa support and they are still trying to work on it. nakaka-frustrate specially i want to change the lay-out of my blog. excited pa naman ako. buti na lng i can still access the control panel and continue putting my entries in.

anyway, last weekend, wala ako ginawa kundi matulog. though for the first time in a long while, nagsimba nanaman kami as a family. Although super kulit si Sofia, ok naman kc at least magkakasama kami.

Sunday eve, hindi lumabas si daddy. nanuod lng kme ng DVD and then sleep na. maaga pa kasi sya the next morning  kasi may bibili na ng mga baboy nya. Which turned out to be lugi pala :( kawawa naman si daddy, all those hard work, wala pala siya kinita, lugi pa.

Mejo tinoyo nga ako kaninang hapon kasi i really wanted to buy a new phone kaso, un nga, wala pa akong kapera-pera. hayy…. baka kumuha na lng ako dun sa taga-dito sa office na nag-ooffer ng installment. Ang iniisip ko lng kasi, baka mawala lng sya dahil lagi naman ako nagco-commute.

dapat pa, hindi ako papasok ngaun coz masama ung pakiramdam ko, kaso dahil mejo toxic ang monday, pumasok na din ako. tutal off ko na din sa monday dahil 4×11 kame this week.

sana talaga maayos na ung blog ko………

oo nga pala, ung tita ko na nasa US, gusto ayusin ko daw ung papel ko para mapadalhan nya ko ng invitation at bakasakali na ma-approve ako as tourist. Actually OK lang naman sa akin un, the problem is, malaki ang gastos. sulit kaya? pano kung wala akong makuhang work dun? NAKAKATAKOT. Kay daddy, gusto nya, ituloy ko. mejo mahina nga lang ang loob ko. pero bahala na. lakarin ko rin muna passport ko.

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pagod na

February 18, 2006

The Bottom Line
Use your feelings more. Your emotional nature could be a driving force to success.

In Detail
You’re still worried about work — but you really don’t need to be, especially if it’s that issue you know you really should have let go of several days (and maybe even weeks) ago. When you’re feeling obsessed, however, there’s really no talking to you, and no way to distract you. Remember, though, that getting too involved in anything never works out favorably. Go to a movie, call a friend or take up a new hobby. Just keep your mind busy.

nabasa ko na naman ang horoscope ko…nakakatawa talaga sya. Ako naman kasi, not really a SUPER BELIEVER of this but i am interested in astrology in general. Pero minsan, masarap din ung may binabasa ka tapos pinipilit mo i-relate sa buhay mo db? nakakatuwa din, very pamatay oras.

so ano naman kaya ang tinutukoy nya ngaun? work pa din kaya? hmm… its for me to find out :D

ayoko may makausap ngaung mga panahon na to tungkol sa CE. Ayoko lng talaga sya pag-usapan. Dumating na ata ako sa phase na i actually STOPPED caring. ang bad ko nu? sobrang pagod na lng siguro talaga ako.

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@02.18

so kumusta naman ako? well, i left the office kaninang mga 6:30am coz i promised daddy that i would cook breakfast for him. dapat il take the same route as i took before and that is cab then FX… but then nakasabay ko ung 2 agents namin and inaya nila ako mag-bus. so there i was walking from the office to Edsa, masakit pa naman ung pumps na gamit ko :( but then from edsa, nakakita na ko agad ng bus na diretso na sa Bulacan, so I took it. mejo pahinto hinto nga lang at nagpi-pick-up pa ng pasahero, pero ok na din. at least ndi na ko papalit palit ng sakayan.

I arrived home an hour later, tulog pa si dad…tinabihan ko muna sya then nun gising na sya, i cooked breakfast na…then sabay na din kme nag-lunch pagbalik nya galing sa farm. Late na din ako nakatulog kasi, nawala ung antok ko since nakaidlip naman ako sa bus (dahil wala naman ako katabi nun).

Woke up at around 6pm, andun na daw si daddy sa tolgate, aantayin daw niya ko kasi ndi pa nya ko nahahatid for this week. Good, kasi tamad na tamad na talaga ako pumasok at wala na din ako pera (naubos sa trip sa zambales)

So aga ko dumating dito, mga 8:30pm pa lang andito na ko. I was really excited to login sa PC cause balak ko baguhin ung lay-out ng blog ko. ang boring kc ng colors. Kaso, sa ndi ko malamang dahilan, ayaw mag-load ng page ng blog ko :( nafu-frustrate tuloy ako. I thought of looking for other hosts like blogdrive, blogspot, etc. Pero wala ako nagustuhan. OK na ko sa i.ph eh. un nga lang, mejo mabagal…

as i am writing this, nag-update na ang dreaded survey ko. hay as usual, bagsak na naman at 66.67%. Mahihirapan na talaga ako this quarter makabawi. as usual…ewan ko ba, ndi ko na rin alam how much longer I could keep up with this. Minsan nga, iniisip ko, sana ndi na lng ako nag-TC. sana nakuntento na lng ako maging RS…masaya naman ako dun eh.. hayy…ganyan talaga.

minsan nga, ayoko na isipin ang mga nangyayari sa buhay ko. ang importante, masaya ako sa family life ko ngaun. UN naman talaga ang improtante di ba?

oo nga pala, kanina, nagtext ang mama ko. Si Clarice daw (ung eldest daughter ko) nakipag-sabunutan sa kalaro nya dahil sa skipping rope. Natawa ako. Kung titingnan mo si Clarice, ang hinhin, girl na girl. Namana nya sken ung kakikayan pero namana nya ke Dad ang tapang.

anyway, i just hope ndi na mag-down uli ung site or maging super slow…ndi ko nga alam if ung connection ko dito sa office or ung site ung may problema…

kaya this weekend, all ill do is sleep. Tutal wala na rin naman ako money kaya most probably ndi kame lalabas ni butch. Or if ever man, sigura dun lang sa SM Marilao to just watch a movie or sa bahay nina Jap. BUT ndi ako IINOM! ayoko na talaga uminom. lalo na pag wala namang problema…

anyway, earlier, i was almost done with the new layout ng blow when may kinlick akong link sa friendster and then..BOOM! nag-hang na ung PC ko :( nakakainis talaga…!
ndi ko tuloy matapos tapos ung mga ginagawa ko

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Quotes Countdown

February 17, 2006

 

top 10 Lost Love Quotes

  • Love is never lost. If not reciprocated, it will flow back and soften and purify the heart.
  • Better never to have met you in my dream than to wake and reach for hands that are not there.
  • Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a teardrop.
  • There is love of course. And then there’s life, its enemy.
  • ‘Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.
  • Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.
  • I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken — and I’d rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived.
  • The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
  • It is better to have loved and lost than never to have lost at all.
  • The hottest love has the coldest end.

 

top ten Sad Love Quotes
 

  • Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.
  • Hearts are not had as a gift, But hearts are earned…
  • The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you.
  • There is a time for departure even when there’s no certain place to go.
  • It is better to have loved and lost than never to have lost at all.
  • How could an Angel break my heart? Why didn’t he catch my falling star? I wish I didn’t wish so hard. Maybe I wished our love apart.
  • Nothing takes the taste out of peanut butter quite like unrequited love.
  • You wondered how you’d make it through. I wondered what was wrong with you. Because how could you give your love to someone else, yet share your dreams with me? Sometimes the only thing you’re looking for, is the one thing you can’t see.
  • Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go.
  • Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don’t know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of withering, of tarnishing.

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